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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Ups and downs

This last fill has had lingering pain. I am so glad it was the last one but I am not looking forward to waking up achy every morning until the first of March when my doctor gets back. I haven't been able to work out much but I am slowly starting back into my cardio at least. It is amazing how even running pulls at my chest muscles. But I need to be doing something with all the holiday sweets around. Damage control!!!!

On the up side, my last treatment is the day after Christmas. Then on the 2nd of January I will hopefully get the all clear from my doctor and then just have to follow up every 3 months. It will be bittersweet as having to go in every 3 weeks has been somewhat of a safety net for me. Something about being in "fighting mode" makes me feel safer. Of course I don't want to live that way forever. I need to try to get my life back to a new sense of normal. Finishing treatment at the end of 2007 is like giving me a clean slate for 2008.

I spent the end of 2006 and all of 2007 fighting and healing. In that 15 months I have had 4 surgeries so far, 2 MRIs, 4 MUGA scans, 1 CAT scan, 1 bone scan, 4 postoperative fills, about 30 infusions (chemo and Herceptin) and too many doctors appointments to look at what used to be my chest! 2007 was certainly a year about me but not the way I would have wanted. 2008 is my year to take back control. Finish losing the weight, finish the surgeries and move forward!!!

4 comments:

kannie said...

Oh, running is the worst - walking and biking are so much gentler! Be gentle with yourself! :-) Congrats on doing so well, and what a great Christmas present to have your last treatment the next day! You're absolutely right about "new normal," - and what a neat thought, to make 2008 the "finishing year!" Very inspiring! :-)

Jenn said...

Kannie,

Thank you so much for your continued thoughts and support. I really appreciate it.

Merry Christmas to you and yours.

kannie said...

Merry Christmas to you and your family, as well!!! :-) And have a GREAT, Very-New Year!!! :-) I really appreciate being able to at least follow your story - your attitude and accomplishments are a true inspiration, and I'm more than happy to be whatever little support I can...you're in our thoughts & prayers! :-)

Mary said...

Jenn,
I am so proud of you and how you have handled this past year. You are an inspiration. 2008 will certainly be "your all better year" I look forward to sharing with you.

Mom