I am not sure why but I am feeling pretty down today. Probably because I am so tired and I have been so busy. I found myself uncomfortable at the gym. I noticed I was lifting weights between two ladies who were basically half my size. I felt like it would take the two of them combined to equal me.
Also I find myself thinking of myself as "damaged goods" as I prepare for the next surgery. The "new girls" don't look too bad but they are far from normal looking as well. The cancer side has "dents" in it from the way they had to cut out the tissue and from the lymph node removal. The plastic surgeon is planning to fill that in during the revision stage in a few weeks. My orginial breasts weren't Playboy bunny material either but at least they looked normal. Maybe once the doctor creates nipples I will feel more complete.
Yep, I certainly need to get to bed early tonight and get some decent sleep!